The beginning of wisdom is fear/awe of Hashem – constructive fear/awe

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The beginning of wisdom is fear/awe of Hashem - constructive fear/awe

Many people are walking around with heavy loads. After all the sufferings of the Jewish people, the mental angush shebe mental anguish has taken its toll – each generation reeling from the pain internalized by the previous generation and then suffering its own pain. And yet, here we stand. How can we understand that under all the layers of pain, there exists a pure compassionate neshama that has not been damaged by even one iota? And how can we bring it from where it is buried underneath our emotions and learned experiences?

The nefesh elokis, the divinely created soul, cannot be damaged because it has a function that is Infinite. Only a portion of the soul enters the body. Two levels – chaya and yechida, remain pristine, in a state of emunah and taanug, delighting in Hashem. The neshama, the ruach and the nefesh enter into the realm of the physical, where free will and our inner drive for pleasure confuse things tremendously, diverting us from the joy and simple pleasure of faith.

We have faith in Hashem. Part of that faith must include faith that He knows what He is doing when He designs our soul, that our soul is something through which He may draw His Infinite Light from the tohu and vohu of this world back to Him through our submission of our natural interpretations.

What this means is that, although it might feel like fiery coals when we do it, when we know Hashem is all loving and He is doing everything, the part of our soul that became snared in negativity due to the natural development of the intellect in a body IS PURE, not damaged, and we can tell Hashem that we want to not want that handshake! When we recognize it is He Who is concealed, we pray to Him and tell Him that we want to go above our natural will, that we want to not want the bond with negativity. Shower the force in it with compassion and then tell Hashem that we desire to move that part of our soul from the negativity into a mitzvah that will give His Compassion the voice and expression to be revealed light in this world.

The amygdela is like a heavy barrier that keeps us focused on the negativity, spiraling between lack and feeling the impact on our self-image. However, the truer reality is that Hashem is doing everything, loves us, and is giving us an opportunity to use real free will to have awe in Him and how He has created us to serve as a channel for the hidden sparks in tohu and vohu to return to Him. How?

When we submit our interpretations – our negative messages – knowing that there is no other Power, and we sincerely want to be compassionate as He is, the bond of our soul with negativity erodes and He delivers us from the chaos to calmness.

Awe of Hashem is constructive. The negativity of the zuhamatic projections is NOT awe of Hashem. Hashem is all loving. we can take back the soul that got hooked into negative patterns. Confess, shower the force with compassion and ask to go above our natural state in order to do mitzvahs. move to do the mitzvah. Hold steady as a barrage of negative downward pulls tries to pull the soul back into the despair (so the natural forces can receive nurture from our soul.) Instead, cling to Hashem, love Him, have enough awe and fear to know that we do not want to go with our negativity, despite how powerful it may feel to “win.”

May our recognition of the Shechina in exile within our subconscious give us the objectivity to hold steady and return to Him what is captive, and may it come back into the world through our mitzvahs as a new light.

One Soul, One People, One Nation

May New Light Shine Into the World
Through our Charity

Hashem is the Something – we have free will to attach to the true reality, and it is heads or tails, one or the other. Ratzo V’Shov


In Rabbi Ginsburg’s clip on seeing things from Hashem’s perspective, the Rav explains the difference in viewpoint between how we see the world as something that came from nothingness, where Hashem is the nothingness and how Hashem sees the world as He being the Something and all the world and everything in it nothingness.

Here is the clip and translation again

The point of today’s article is to show from the lives of Shaul and from Avraham Aveinu that when it comes down to it, the Torah is teaching us that the impact of seeing things from Hashem’s perspective – that He is the Something and we become part of that when we are mesiras nefesh – is eternal.

Shaul held off executing the King of the Amalekites only one day and the prophet Shmuel rebukes him and tells Shaul that because Shaul did not follow the instruction of Hashem, that Shaul has lost the kingship. Malchus comes from the nullification of our subjective interpretations in favor of bringing Hashem’s Will into the picture so that we may serve as a channel across which Hashem’s maintenance of the world may flow through our speech and deeds – an Infinite process that happens by Hashem’s doing when we are mesiras nefesh. Hashem does it. He is doing everything. Our recognition of that means we do battle with our subjective interpretations even if it is very uncomfortable for us.

We see this from Avraham Aveinu at the akeida. Every single day we read about the binding of Yitzchok. Avraham Aveinu struggled for three days to submit his subjective viewpoint and he brought Yitzchok for a sacrifice and stood with the knife, clear as a bell ready to serve Hashem . For this, to this day, we are blessed as Avraham’s children.

Avraham became part of the Somethingness through his mesiras nefesh of his subjective interpretation of Yitzchok’s life and the future of the Jewish people. Shaul lost the kingship because his natural kindness to give the King of the Amalekians a more honorable demise interfered with the timing expected by Hashem of the mitzvah of eradicating Amalek.

It is heads or tails. Either we are in our subjectivity or we are in an elevated subjectivity that has brought awareness of Hashem into the picture and evoked compassion for Hashem’s Will over our own because we desire to be eternally part of the Something. Choosing our natural subjectivity keeps us as part of the nothing despite the experience of it from our perspective that, indeed, we are expressing ourselves and that we are the something.

We become Something when we attach to the Something.

Each year, in Elul, we search within to find which of our seemingly unending subjective natural viewpoints we wish to bring more awareness of Hashem so that we may redeem our soul from being attached to our “nothingness” and instead to attach to Hashem’s “Somethingness.”

The process we engage in for this is run and return. We cannot stay constantly connected to the Somethingness, for He is Infinite and we are limited, natural, mortal beings. However, we can grow in our emunah and engage more and more moments in the run and return effort, thereby serving Hashem by being a channel through which His Will and light flows into the world.

By bringing awareness of Hashem into our subjectivity, we elevate our natural existence to become part of the Somethingness.

I want to share how this works – it is a matter of intention and prayer, a use of real free will to see our falterings and tell Hashem about it and then tell Him we will to go above our natural reactions. Then we go do a mitzvah, a chesed, learn Torah or give a blessing and through that effort, we attach to Somethingness and His Infinite process of supervision is able to utilize our lives to flow His Compassion and goodness into the world.

When we are feeling wired up, write down all the messages we are feeling – what are the messages we are telling ourselves and how does it feel. Write every single one down on a piece of paper and then hold it to our hearts. We have the messages. Now look passed the messages to the force of the messages. How big is it? Do we feel it strength? That is the Shechina – our soul given to us by Hashem, a part of Hashem Himself – concealed in our subconscious and attached to these messages. Recognize our Creator! Hashem! I do not wish to bring Your Goodness into this dark room. Hold that force in the mind and shower it with compassion, that we do not want to bring it into the darkness of the messages in our hand. By ourselves, this is what happens, that this Shechina that is our soul is bonded with these messages and we do not want it. We are helpless and have no control over nature but it is our will that this Shechina – our soul – be vested instead into the mitzvah of Torah learning, chesed, mitzvahs or giving of blessings or prayer. Continue to shower compassion upon the force and intentionally move it to our intention for a mitzvah – give a penny tzedaka, give a blessing, say a tehillim Then wait. In a few moments, look at the messages on the page. Are they still as alive?

Repeat as needed. If nothing is felt or if nothing seems to shift, double and triple the compassion on the Shechina – on our soul – that is so distant we are not yet feeling it. Trust that Hashem is the Something and we wish to attach and KEEP DOING IT, and strengthen ourselves in emunah. We will, with Hashem’s lovingkindness, begin to feel shifts.

This is how we bring awareness of Hashem into our subjective interpretations and elevate our subjectivity to a being that is part of the Something, the greatest pleasure there is in this world and for all eternity. Answer the doubts, second wave of the issue that is the voice of Amalek within, by repeating on the force of those doubting messages. it could be a wave of nausea. Or a ridiculing thought. Or an angry punishing thought condemning ourselves for being so naive. Through bringing the Shechina in exile in those messages as well, we “shecht” Amalek, for anything without a soul is not alive. Bring all that Shechina in exile into the world through mitzvahs. And really become part of Something.

Comprehending how nullifying the subjective interpretations makes us part of Something – heads or tails – actually then gives us a unique expression in the world through our subjectivity elevated by awareness and love for Hashem, Torah, and mitzvahs. And we feel it, in our hearts. Our very hearts melt from stone to flesh.

And for us, that is a revealed miracle, for our nature has been changed.



Nullification

Nullification

Nullification: Seeing the world through Hashem's eyes

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Rabbi Asher Freund helps us understand that to draw in new light, we first nullify our sense of “self.” How do we come to that place of humility and what does it look like? What is nullification about? How is it actually good for us?

Rabbi Yitzchok Ginsburg learned in Rabbi Asher Freund’s community for awhile Here is an eight minute explanation of nullification from Rabbi Ginsburg. Below is the transcript in English

Seeing the World 
through Hashem’s eyes by Rabbi Yitzchok Ginsburg

There are two  knowledges
(views) “G-d of knowledges” is in the plural form.

What does it mean,” two knowledges”?

There is higher knowledge and a lower knowledge.

How does chassidut explain this?

The lower knowledge, our knowledge, our perspective, our
vantage point,  is that
Yesh/somethingness is lower- we are existence here below, that is how we feel
ourselves and everything around us, and Hashem is not graspable by us, and
therefore He, in relation to us, is ayin/nothingness.

And therefore we also say that the world was created ex
nihilo/something from nothing,  and G-d
recreates the world every moment ex nihilo, “He renews in His goodness each
day, continually, the works of creation. 

This is called the lower knowledge. That we, the
somethingness, are bring brought into existence, from nothingess, from what is
ungraspable to us.

What is the higher knowledge?  Higher knowledge is precisely the opposite
-we heard before that every person has two knowledges, just as their faces are
not similar to each other so too their views are not similar to each other, and
the Torah comes to make peace between the two views.  The original disagreement, the root, the
source of disagreement, is essentially between G-d and ourselves, that we see
existence a certain way, and G-d essentially sees existence the opposite, the
way G-d sees it,  the Yesh Ha’amiti/true
somethingness, is above, meaning, He Himself is the true somethingness,  and everything that He creates, to Him,
everything, “before Him, does not exist,” everything before Him, opposite Him,
is ought, meaning that He sees it from somethingness to nothingness, and as we
see it, we are the somethingnes , and it is from nothingness to
somethingness.  Two completely opposite
opinions about existence. From here we will understand also what we want- what
does a Jew want?  What does G-d want from
us?

What do we need to want from ourselves?  We need to want to come closer to the
knowledge (view) of Hashem. And also, the ability to disseminate this knowledge,
meaning that our role in this world is to be a light unto the nations, to
disseminate the knowledge of G-d to everyone, how Yesh/somethingness is above,
and ayin/nothingness is below, to revolutionize the way we look at the entire
existence, that essentially the main thing is Hashem, and our
self-nullification, if we are nullified before him, we will be like our holy
Patriarchs, who are the divine chariot. Chariot means nullified to the rider.

Of the holidays of the Jewish people, the holiday of the Divine
Chariot is Shavuot . “G-d’s chariot is twice ten thousand tines thousands of
angels, G-d was among them at Sinai in His holiness.” Meaning that G-d comes
with His Chariot, and this is what He wants from us, from all of us –

Which haftarah do we read on shavuout?  We read the work of the chariot, of Ezekiel,
the prophet,  the beginning of Ezekiel,
because the whole holiday is aspiration to be a divine chariot, nullified to
G-d, to adopt for ourselves the knowledge of G-d, and then G-d is riding us,
meaning that He is directing existence through us.

And Moshe went up to G-d, what does that mean?  That later in the Torah, at the end of the
portion of the week of the holiday of Shavuout, the portion of behalotcha – at the
end of Behalotcha there is the description of the prophecy of Moshe Rebbeinu,
there it is written, and he looks at the image of G-d.

The Alter Rebbe, the author of the Tanya, the first Rebbe of
Chabad, explains, what does that mean, 
and he looks at the image of G-d? 
it is not that he is looking at an image of G-d, the image of G-d is the
picture of G-d, the eyes, as it were, the view, the higher knowledge of G-d,
how G-d looks and sees our existence, 
meaning that Moshe merits to look at the world through the eyes, as it
were, of the Creator of the world.  To see
the world as G-d sees it, this is called “and he looks at the image of G-d.”

 This is called the
lower ascend, that we, the lower, need to reach above, with the giving of the Torah,
like Moshe Rebbeinu,  to see existence
through the eyes of G-d, what is the opposite, that G-d is coming down?

There are the names of G-d, Elokim, and Havayah. And the
name Havayah itself has a few levels.  Before
the exodus from Egypt it is written  My name
Havayah I did not make known to them – and I appeared to the patriarchs  as Kel Shakkai.

But my name Havayah, the unique name Havayah, I did not make
known to the patriarchs. The commentators ask, the name Havayah is written many
times with the patriarchs – what does that mean, my name Havayah I did not make
known to them?

So again, according to the inner dimension, it divides, that
there is in the name Havayah –  this is
also according to the simple reading because the Ibn Ezra also explains it this
way,  before the 13 attributes of mercy,
why is it written twice, havayah havayah, two names of havayah,  so he says that the first is the noun, and about
this it says my name havayah I did not make known to them. It is higher than
existence, completely above creation, totally transcendental, above existence,
the second havayah, which was revealed to the patriarchs, is the name havayah
from the word mehaveh/bringing into existence, that He is continuously bringing
into existence, “So would Job do” that is what is written, the Name
Havayah  that He is continuously bringing
existence into being, this is the adjective Havayah.

This was revealed to the patriarchs but my name havayah, the
noun was not.

Now that the higher is descending means that there should be
a feeling or a revelation of the noun havayah. How is this expressed?

 The Ramban writes
that this is expressed through revealed miracles.

Elokim, the name Elokim is the numerical equivalent of
hateva/nature, as is known, It is the direction of the world naturally, the
natural direction includes what seems to be coincidence  we don’t always feel the divine providence in
every turn and step,  and even if we do
feel it, it is hidden miracles. We feel the miracle enclothed within the ways
of nature, but the name havayah is revealed in miracles.  It is to feel completely that every moment of
my life here, G-d is making a revolution, doing a miracle, to feel this all the
time, the miracle of G-d, of the name havayah.

This is called that the higher, G-d descends into our
world,  our experience, Hashem is coming
down to us. Until now is one teaching, one 
that the giving of the Torah is that the lower ascend upward,  to see reality as Hashem sees reality, that
somethingness is up there and nothingness is down here.  This Moshe rebbeinu merited, and all of us
need to aspire to this thing, and we receive strength for this from the giving
of the Torah and about the higher descending, 
Hashem comes down to be revealed to reveal Himself to us, we want Hashem
to reveal Himself to us here, in our reality, 
in our existence, how does He reveal Himself?  When He does open miracles for the people of
Israel in Israel, but actually open miracles, that we see the reality of Hashem.

One Soul, One People, One Nation

May New Light Shine Into the World
Through our Charity